i am listening to this love song over and over
her voice makes me want to cry
and i know this song has no meaning
and it makes me want to cry
now this love song is over

i am hearing what i am not saying
and the words look like a car crash when i try to picture it
i. am. getting. detatched. from. you.

did you know
that i know how to do that
to shut up
for good
and turn off
forever
and eventually fade away from you
until we are nothing

i think that might happen.
maybe because it has too
because...i don't think this can work.

and i'm afraid
because i want it to work
but that would mean that i would have to open back up
and turn back on
for good
forever maybe...
so that you don't lose me
and that would mean
that i would become full of wants and needs again

i am not going to tell you that you are not enough
we just fell in love at bad times in our lives
now i'm afraid to be in love
and afriad to let you love me
my fits of rage, my temper tantrums
when i try to leave

maybe i'm just trying to get out while things are still ok
before things get really ugly
but i guess things really aren't ok

if i can't even talk to you
and i'm writing this instead
hoping you will read it and talk to me about it
because it's easier than addressing you
subtle...yeah.

this love song is short
and her voice is sad
and i want to cry
because i'm not going to sleep until things are right with you
and if they must end
then i will sleep forever

and don't judge me for saying that
because you are worth my world too...